Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Confession Time

Okay, so I started seeing a therapist. I thought I was just going to go and gripe about work. What social worker doesn't need an outlet? Of course, before the end of the session we'd already gotten to the heart of the matter... Mommy issues. I'm so transparent LoL. Anyway, I think it will be good for me, not to mention my friends. I never want to be that friend who uses every person in their life as a sounding board. I'd rather enjoy my relationships. It's amazing to me the effect she still has on me 19 years post death. I'm actually pretty proud of myself for going. I went through all the same bargaining dialog with myself that I imagine everyone else goes through... "I'm not crazy", "I got this", etc etc. and I DO "got this", but it's very nice to have someone to release all the things I'd like to talk about that I just wouldn't put on someone I care about.

In other news, we got a pool this summer. So much fun!! Great exercise, very relaxing. The heat has been unbearable this year and the pool is just a perfect cure. (except I get sea sick if I swim too long... I'm just a freak like that LoL)  We've been enjoying all the summer veggies our local farmers have grown, watching Big Brother (which is kind of boring this year) and getting ready for our son's Sr. year. Sr. pics were so funny. He's had that "Bond, James Bond" look in almost all of them. Oh! and I turned 40 this summer. What what!! Yes, I'm a grown up now. Thank you... thank you.. you can stop the applause now.

Tonight we're celebrating my daughter's best friend's birthday. She's such a sweetheart. I hope we can make it a very special day for her. Cake, presents and good food followed by the show "Pretty Little Liars". What could be better?

Hope everyone has a great day.

6 comments:

Paula, With all my heart said...

Nothing wrong with asking for a little help. Hang in there.

Tara - SanitySrchr said...

I struggled within myself with the very same questions when I finally decided that I was going to see a psychiatrist. S-T-R-U-G-G-L-E-D! The more I've gone, and the better the relationship I've developed with him, the better I feel (correct diagnosis and treatment helps too). There's nothing wrong with asking for help!!!

J. said...

I am all about the therapists, they make me sane. glad to see back thoug, I've missed you.

jodilee0123 said...

Oh how I have missed you. And, you sound board off of me anytime--after all--you've been there for me! :0)

Kelly said...

Glad your back!!! Missed you. Didn't know you had a senior. Me too. I will be the one in therapy when he leaves for college. It is not going to be pretty. :(

SocialWrkr24/7 said...

Good for you! Take good care of yourself so that you can take care of others. And YES, it is VERY HARD WORK. Glad you've decided that you are worth it though! :)